I am Saudi woman, mother and Ex-Muslim who is fighting for her simple rights. To be born a female in Saudi is to become practically a prisoner. All your moves are controlled. You don’t have the final say in your personal decisions. Women in Islamic community are treated worse than slaves. As a Saudi Woman, depression and anxiety are a part of my life. I recognise now that it has been for the majority of my life. I am a victim of emotional and physical abuse. Me and my kids.
It would take me close to hours to coax myself out of bed. The only reason I would even get up was because I have kids and they need my care. I felt like all my energy was being sucked up in dealing with adverse circumstances, leaving me no resources to do the things I really wanted to do in life. I lost all interest in the hobbies I would have enjoyed in the past. And this was because of that internal tug of war that I was having to go through every day. I believed that something was seriously wrong when I started to have passive suicidal thoughts.
I was so lucky to have sessions with Jimmy when I sunk into this deep depression. Jimmy helped me to think about my life in different ways. Before starting the sessions, I was focusing on the bad thoughts that were stopping me from feeling happy, my energy was limited, and the whole situation was negatively affecting me and my kids. The sessions guided me in the right direction to find myself again and experience happiness. I become more positive and started to create a picture in my head of how life should be and when I see myself with my beautiful kids in future it leaves me hopeful. I believe that I still have a long way of fighting, but all the training I have done has been worth it and I'm starting to feel the benefit. I am in better health than I have been for years. Plus, I am not alone anymore, I have a brilliant support group of atheist friends at telegram and Twitter who I was able to find through the support of Free Hearts Free Minds.
Thank you Jimmy, Yasmine and everyone who helps towards this scheme for giving me the most incredible advices and supporting me during this hard time In my life.
Fatmah, Saudia Arabia