I was at my lowest having mental breakdowns almost every night for the last 2 years, I was constantly thinking of death and how I am useless and not worth living. I was very harsh on myself, blaming myself for other people's actions.
I was abused and sexually assaulted and I thought it was my fault and I deserved it. I had so much pain from traumas that I was not aware of. I was deeply hurt and I couldn't, with all my strength, lift myself up.
After the sessions w FHFM I am much better, I can comfort myself and navigate my feelings better, I amended a lot of the harsh words that I used to label myself with. I am much kinder now to myself, I can recognize that so many things happened or still happening that are out of my control I don't have to take its heavy weight on my shoulders.
I am working on building my self-esteem and for the first time in my life I am working on establishing a healthily daily routine.
my mental health is a work in progress and now I have the main keys/skills to keep myself in relatively good state.
I actually made goals in the future that I am looking forward to achieve!
The most rewarding moment was when I recognized that my abuse and sexual assault was not my fault, all the hatred towards myself is gone.
And the most challenging was to be kinder, be less critical to myself and put my needs first.
I would like to add that my therapist made me feel safe and they made sure to make me feel heard and understood, they were supportive and kind, I am truly thankful that I had the chance.